Tuesday, March 29, 2005
yoyoyo!yep.. juz like wad sherlene said.. i tink its time for us to get on with our lives.. tho i'll still miss all of u.. i tink there's really no use dwelling on the past 3 mths.. i really enjoyed myself with u guys in the past few months.. n i noe, maybe 10 yrs down the road, when i tink abt the times we had, i'll prob be smiling or laughing (like some crazy idiot.. =p) thx everyone, for letting me haf such enjoyable times.. =))))))
yep.. welcome myself back to earth.. back to reality.. life's must go on.. seriously, while i still miss u guys lots rite now, i dunno how long this can last.. as in, i cant possibly be with u guys all e time, n we'll all haf new frenz.. while distance makes e heart fonder.. i dunno if some time down e road, i'll miss u guys as much as i do now.. i guess, as time goes by, we'll prob meet even less often, tok less, blah blah.. even to e extent of not contacting one another, i believe, we'll forever be friends.. =)
but den again, maybe u guys wun forget me after all (i certainly hope so), coz i'll constantly stuff u guys with food.. basically guodong lah.. coz shen1 xing4 lan3 duo4 de4 wo3, wun rack my brains over wad food to make for u.. so i'll juz make guodong.. anw, guodong has HIGH sugar content.. so i'll fatten u guys up until u're as fat as me!! MWAHAHAHA~ okie lah.. if i really sooooooooo free (which is most prob coz i lazy to do hw.. hehex..), den i'll experiment new stuff lor.. but wad else is there to make?!
okie lar.. tell me wad u guys one lor.. if i noe how to make (which i most prob dunno), den i'll make lor..
alrite! welcome e new 7a-ers.. muz intro them to our blog hor.. yay~ =D oh ya.. today was nice.. vanessa's a nice girl.. v lame lo.. hehex.. li ying oso nice.. wah~ i so nice, i praised them nice leh.. hehex.. alrite.. i noe my vocab v limited lah.. but nice is a nice word mah.. lolx..
ohya pq, i'm laughing at e picture now.. ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha..
ohya py, muz arrange time to run tgt hor.. hehex.. i suddenly so enthu abt running.. i think i muz be crazy.. lolx..
okie.. currently, i'm feeling much better than laz wk.. yep.. starting to settle down.. hope to cya guys soon on sat.. guys (i do mean guys as in boys), dun play lan on sat leh... muz join us hor.. (tho i still dunno wad we gonna do then..)
alrite.. til then.. tata~
=)
-me-
Zi Ping
7A-er
9:48 PM
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Everybody pls pls pls cheer up!
I'm trying this really lousy attempt by pasting this.... Please laugh.
Be happy!
PQ
p q
1:39 AM
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Monday, March 28, 2005
hi guys well i found this song which i think is really appropriate and i dedicate it to you guys that are leaving. Its a really touching piece and very beautiful sadly you guys can't hear the tune but the words alone may inspire us to feel better.Linger
um-hmm...I want to linger here,
um-hmm...A little longer here,
um-hmm...A little longer here with you.
um-hmm...It's such a perfect night,
um-hmm...It doesn't seem quite right,
um-hmm...This is my last night here with you.
um-hmm...And come september,
um-hmm...I will remember,
um-hmm...Our campfire nights and friendship true.
um-hmm...And as the years go by,
um-hmm...I think of you and sigh,
um-hmm...It's just goodnight and not goodbye.
okay thats it. Hope you guys like it.
Adam
-duty-
12:06 AM
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
haven't blogged here for a g e s !!anyway. we're seriously glad that people actually miss us when we're gone! hehe. although i know you guys will get over it soon! just like i know i will. think we all need to move on. as hard as it may seem. but moving on doesn't neccessarily mean neglecting your old friends, it just means facing and accepting reality. whoa, i don't think i would have managed to say all that a few days ago! ahaha. cos i was still rather sore back then.
hrmz but i think instead of being sad, i should be happy. i'm truly lucky to get into rj when so many others got kicked out. tho some did better than me for Os. frankly speaking, i think i'm the only person in rj who isn't happy to be there. but then again, i also think that i'm the only person who placed rj as my 2nd choice and actually got it. okay. there may be others. but certainly not many.
anyways. i wanna meet the new 2nd intakers in 7a!! must be quite exciting for the 7a people. hehe. though i know they will never be able to replace those of us who are gone, i believe that each one of them is unique and together with the old 7a people, they will make 7a a unique class again! yay!
everyone seems to be asking this question. why are we given a chance to foster strong friendships during the first 3 months in jc, then after that, we are forced to separate for the rest of the 2 years? well my opinion is that, better to have known such good friends for such a short time, rather than not to have known them at all(=
oh ya!! i found ms selva's picture in the nov 2004 issue of female! ahaha. just happened to be flipping throught the stack of old mags when i chanced upon her picture! shall show you guys on monday! haha.
love you guys loads,
sherlene
sherlene
10:04 PM
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as you all know... i'm definitely not the techno type... meaning erm... i don't know how to upload pics on the blog lah... and then right... don't know who to ask? so... hehe... erm... didn't upload here. yep. did it at imagestation. yep. in case you all didn't know... you go to www.imagestation.com, click on sign in. then... for user name, type this: melindawonghl and password is the same as the blog's one... i changed it because i got hacked and some photos were deleted...
by the way, the photos are the stuff we took that day... sadly didn't take alot... but yeah... if you guys want any of them just tell me ok? yep... and those techno whizzes out there, please teach me how to post photos? so in the future, i won't need to resort to such 'primitive' ways to share pics with you all... yep. next time will zhi2 jie1 post on blog...
and ziping... thanks for your ai xin tian ping. haha... wish i had time to bake cookies for you all. nvm. didn't bake today means i have an excuse to bake in the future and force you all to eat... *jian xiao* hahahahaha. and don't need to haunt me lah. cos i will haunt you too. =P
i love you.
mel
7A-er
4:58 PM
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I was slacking for a while, then I remembered the song. Alas, all the search engines are down so I'll type all out =D
但是天总会黒 人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味 谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
(FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT!)
当你孤单你会想起谁
(SEVEN A!!!)
你想不想找个人来陪
(想！！！）
你的快乐伤悲 只有我们能体会
让我们再陪你走一回！！
(ONE MORE TIME!)
当你孤单你会想起谁
(SEVEN A!!!)
你想不想找个人来陪
(想！！！）
你的快乐伤悲 只有我们能体会
让我们再陪你走一回！！
你的快乐伤悲 只有我们能体会
让我们再陪你走一回...
Yay!!! Finally practice my long rusted chinese typing skills! Noticed any changes in the song? Good for you =) 05S7A Forever!!!
Insanely yours,
Hao Tian
7A-er
4:00 PM
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The blog is suddenly alive, though very sad to read. Got access to another computer today, such a computerless days will be ending soon (Yay for me) and I'll be free from my solitary confinement =P
The day had past. We know of the losses we have sustained. 7a has lost a quarter of its numbers, and an intangible amount of energy. Everyday at the class bench is a lot sadder, no this person, not that person. Sitting there makes me think of the rest of the 7a-ers.I wish that all this had never happened; I wished to see everyone everyday in school, laughing, joking, fooling around and the fact that I know that it won't be so tears at my heart (yes, I have one) But we all know that with each gain, we also gain a chance of loss. I expected the class to diminish and I prepared myself, but I didn't expect its stroke to be so hard. Not that I'm crying at home (not that there's anything wrong with that =P), but I really felt an unknown pain. It was not my fault that I had this loss, its not the fault of anyone, really. Our results have been decided at the moment we put down our pens in the Os. Why? Why is the system here so cruel? Is this a proof of Da Vinci's princple? Survival of the fittest? Can one examination ever determine the value of a person? I don't know, I don't want to know. All I know is that our life will have to go on.
7A has never failed, we have walked so long (or short) together and we loved each other. We are a big Faaami-ly. Some of us has moved onto the next phase of their lives. You all have the 1st 3months to look back and smile at. Remember, no matter what happens, you guys are the original 7A, and nothing can replace your position in my mind (not that I will be unwelcoming to the 2nd intakers).
Do not grudge that we have been seperated, be grateful that we knew each other and we will see each other again, no? And as I have said to those who appealed that day: I am not saying goodbye, I'm saying good luck, for we will meet again.
Ne Cede Malis Sed Contra Audientor Ito
-Hao Tian
7A-er
3:32 PM
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Someday we'll meet again,
In a place where all is fine,
Where people play and people sing,
And everyone is kind.
Someday we'll meet again,
And dust the throne of cold,
So our king of ice can be rethroned,
And lame jokes be retold.
Someday we'll meet again,
And hear the teh teh girl squeal,
And smile at her childlike innocence,
And relive the happiness we feel.
Someday we'll meet again,
And hear the jay chou fan sing,
I think of our reunion once more,
And all the joy it'll bring.
Someday we'll meet again,
My good friend Pei Rong and I,
And see the classic sian sian look,
And never say goodbye.
Someday we'll meet again,
That physics psycho and anime king,
I'll use his shoulder one more time,
And tell him everything...
Someday we'll meet again,
On a day where the sun shall glow,
My love for you will never change,
Our memories I will hold.
Till the day we meet again,
I will hold back and not cry,
Tears of joy not pain I will shed,
On the day where there's no goodbye.
ok... think it sucks quite badly... but yeah. created for them. there's so little i can do... nothing that can help. trying in vain to cheer them up, but how that's possible i really don't know. been trying not to show how sad i truly am... haha. according to zi ping i conceal it quite well...
yesterday when i waved goodbye to her on the train, i felt stupid. wanted to run as far as i could, so i could see her for a while longer. but couldn't. when they left on bus 70 to the mrt station, i wanted to run too and wave goodbye. but couldn't. when i turned around, realised that i couldn't smile anymore. didn't need to act anymore. used to laugh more when i felt sad. don't think i need to anymore. haha. have graduated with a degree in concealing inner feelings. haha ignore me. in my weird weird mood now...
well... someday we'll meet again. till then, i love you.
mel
7A-er
12:34 AM
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Saturday, March 26, 2005
dear 05s7a,(wah~ sound so formal..)
i would like to inform you that i will be bringing food to hc on monday, hope you will enjoy it.
yours sincerely,
ziping
hahax..
actually, i'll b brging guodong on mon lah.. i tink some of u lyk to eat it rite.. esp karen.. hahax.. so come early to get it hor.. or else it becomes watery n gross.. but of coz.. it'll still be delicious.. coz i made it mah.. ai4 xin1 tian2 pin3 u noe.. hahax.. i'll try to find some disposable container to put e guodong.. if i cant.. den i'll have more reasons to go back to hc.. muz retrieve my container mah.. lolx..mwahahahahaha....
anw.. here r some photos we took on fri...
click to enlarge
i noe we look lyk ghosts.. wooooooo..
this pic tooooooooooooo dark liao.. karen.. nxt tym we muz take again hor.. promise?
the boys~
see e height diff.. wah~ sobx..
nice bg.. a white wall..
this pic is supposed to be me n py onli.. den everyone chionged in.. hahax.. but nice pic taken..
similar situation to e one supposedly with py onli..
the star of poor pple.. hahax.. ie those living in hdb.. starting from e bottom, going clockwise.. there's me, yz, alfred, ht n py..
oh ya.. i'm going to develop these photos.. so if u guys want any of these photos, sms or give me a call.. i'll develop em once i gather enuff strength to lift my butt off my chair.. n go to e shop.. hahax..
tt's bout all~
eh.. e neoprint we took hor.. is with karen now huh? muz colour photocopy n give me hor.. but i wan at least one original one.. hehex..
mel~ i haven take photo with u leh.. nxt tym muz rmb hor.. i'll haunt u if u dun take with me~! hahax..=p
that's all.. tata~
=)
-me-
Zi Ping
7A-er
11:53 PM
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Friday, March 25, 2005
Sigh the class is without colour now. School has been dull with no one to talk to no one to laugh with no one to joke with...do you not feel it? The depression hangs like a stiff cloud in the air it is all encompassing and all empowering...Over the past three months we have formed bonds and become fixed into a pattern of life that has revolved round school and class. You guys have worked your way into the pattern in a way so intricate that at your removal the disruption caused left those behind stranded and alone.
Zi ping our early bird. All those of us who come early know her back in a very detailed manner for every morning without fail we would see her in her favourite corner sitting there, listening to her music and doing her work. You was always there during lessons to crack your comments sending people into peals of laughter. Without fail you seemed to be there at every class outing with us, in your punk clothings and adding joy to the atmosphere. Class is dry without you. Angel like you actually very good for me very frank suan me in class not enough in letters also can suan me!
Sherlene our 200% girl. I would defend my statement with religious fever if anyone disagrees with my comment that in way you became like the small girl in class even though we all know whos the smallest. You always seemed to bring out the side of people that starts to treat you like a small girl with your every action and your every word. I don't mean this as an insult you just always brought the nice side out of people, no one could ever stay angry at you for long with all your sha jiaoing. you just seemed to melt away the barriers that hold us back. Without you a lot of us are going to lose that innocence that you seemed to bring out. (i dun think nicholas would have gone round pulling ponytails if he hadn't started on sherlene)
Zihao the local techno wiz! Anything you want to know about maths physics or computers just find zihao. His mind has become like a mass storage device lar! His patience with physics and maths is beyond any of our capabilities. We would have given up long before the idea even comes to him. This patience seems to have affected all other areas of his life. He puts up with our most outrageous demands. This patience has seen its work most prominantly on our dear melinda. She who i feel requires a rather high level of patience to deal with but who zihao seems to have accomadated with absolute ease being able to bring out the best side of melinda and put a constant smile on her face. I would definitely miss you zihao that radiant smile., my anime buddy!
Louis the song bird. It doesn't end till the fat lady sings in this case its no day is the same if louis doesn't sing. I know we all complain and groan in agony whenever we hear your voice but inside we all marvel at your extrodinary vocals. The frozen throne lays dusty and unused waiting for its owner who we have all lost. I still remember when during orientation you broke the ice with all your lame jokes and weird games that had absolutely no meaning. Everybody remembers black magic? We will miss you louis, i would probably be right when your the most hardworknig student we have, no counting zhen hao. You always seemed to be on top of your work and even inspired me to work hard, still remember coming my place to do homework hahaha! And asking you to call me to tell me to do homework that was hilarious.
pei yueng, they say a picture paints a thousand words well i think the same can be said brought your face that py face started by peiqi. After that you seemed to see py faces everywhere we go sigh you were always so sturdy, never waver even the worst kind of news you get you don't waver under any amount of pressure and stress you still never let it show you just gave a py face hahaha. You had a good heart and were always concerned bout other peoples feelings no matter what, sigh still remember that time you commented that you karen and i always seemed to end up gonig back together so nice of you to ask whether i was okay with it. I actually very xian diao bought it but how can say that in your face right no lar just joking it never was sian hearing you guys gossiping about this that and those. If anything you remind me of my sister and it was always nice hanging round you will never forget you.
Liang zhen still remember you asking the rugby guys to call you Liang-X nearly choked but yes life was good with you around. Was a bit hard to talk to you in the beginning your the only guy i know in class which doesn't seem to engoy senseless talk about absolutely nothing you always wanted to talk about serious stuff but after a while found it rather enjoyable after all it was good to hear the views of others and we debated on our way back from the gym. Even after you quit rugby was still good to have you in class. i will never forget you liang zhen it is good to have you back cause now at least (touch wood) you can't stay in class we still have you to in the school its better than nothing but will miss your interesting arguments with the teachers. (will never forget you trying to convince mr chow that all theories are wrong hahaha)
Anyway will miss all 6 of you'll if you all go class will never be the same you'll have been one of the best classes i ever had and now that is broken well lets hope that you guys will still keep in touch it would be a far greater shame to lose you'll completely. Three cheers to a lasting friendship!!!
-duty-
9:12 PM
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
hmm.. realised my prev post was quite gloomy... but this shld be better..today started off quite badly.. coz i was missing u guys.. was very very very very very moody in e morn.. plus i had a really bad stomachache (after drinking a cup of iced milo), which made my mood worse............. so.. e morn started off really badly.. louis n i were totally sian diaox..
when they were singing their sch song this morn (which sounded much lyk community singing), we felt quite left out lor.. n its so quiet during e national anthem lor.. no one was singing.. den i rmbed how e sch wud sing e anthem n college anthem loudly.. esp with e chs guys there.. suddenly, its so quiet.. not quite used to it..
we den learnt their mass dance.. seriously din feel lyk learning another sch's one lor.. den they cheered after dancing.. which made me feel even more left out.. coz i din noe their cheers.. plus e fact tt i was really not interested to cheer as a nj student..=(
when we went to their lt5, it was so hot lah.. e air con was lyk not working at all!! den i rmbed tt we haf heat (or is it motion) sensors in hc.. n e air con is also working so well tt everyone feels cold..
fell alslp during e talk in e lt.. was so warm lah.. how to stay awake?!! after tt was lunch.. initially, i was stoning, n stoning, n stoning.. waiting for my frenz who were buying their uniforms.. e stomachache was still there, so i din feel lyk eating.. actually, i was quite happy stoning.. rmbed e firx stoning session with py n karen during adam's stupid vnr.. (!! still angry when i think abt it lor!!) finally lifted my butt off e seat abt 15mins after i told myself to do tt.. seriously lagging today.. ate some food, which made my stomachache worse.. argh! den they started with e station games.. e games were fun.. was totally wet n soapy at e end of e day.. i tink it was e games which made me feel better.. coz it kept me bz.. so i wun think abt u guys..
i tink another reason why i cud take my mind off u guys is tt my clzmates were with me.. coz we got to choose our own OG..
ohya.. there's a guy in my OG who's called benjamin n came of aci as well.. hahax.. den i tot of ben..
during the period o time when i was very moody.. all i can think of is u guys.. it sort of started during lunch.. as i was stoning, i was this girl wearing a spongebob squarepants shorts.. den i tot of pq.. i oso saw a grp of pple eating beside me.. n i tot of e times when we played zhong ji mi ma during lunch.. i felt weird.. it wasnt right.. suddenly, i didnt see any superbly tall guy ard me.. neither did i hear any screaming or anyone being teh.. it was weird.. really weird.. i tot of everyone in class.. e tall ht.. e chirpy pq.. e always-acting-gay alfred/alfie/alfra.. e quiet n man-of-few-words-but-can-be-lame-at-times yanzhi, e always-scaring-me mel.. e teh sher.. e classic py.. e smart gwyneth.. e always-being-crazy-with-me-n-fellow-rvian joanna.. okie.. at tis rate.. i'll name everyone one in clz.. but u guys shld noe how i feel.. i really miss all of u..
currently, i still cant imagine myself as a njc student.. i tink of hc.. i already feel that i'm part of hc after 3 mths.. u noe.. at e end of e day.. the OGLs were saying.. they cheered because of 2 reasons.. 1 is to enjoy themselves..2 is to let 'e other side' hear them.. i felt really hurt.. so i din cheer..
but i believe tt i'll eventually accept e fact tt i'm no longer a hc student... maybe when i get to noe my new clzmates.. i'll feel better.. hopefully.. someone will make me feel at home again..
alrite.. tt's all for now.. tata~
=)
-me-
Zi Ping
ps: pq.. i went to do e test tt u were toking abt.. i haf e 25% male brain as well.. u're not e onli one with e supposedly male brain.. =)
pps: mel.. thx for praising me to e skies.. saying tt i'm a genius n i'm really not.. thx.. =)
zp
9:41 PM
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hello... exciting week isn't it?
I thought school posting day was interesting, to say the least. It got me thinking about alot of things. Like where would I go if I were posted out? Who would I miss most if I were in another school? Who would I meet if I were in another school? Who would miss me if I left? What school do I go to? What combination will I get? Who... what... where...how...why...when... So much thinking my head started to hurt and well... I got teary eyed for a while... after school... after going out... at home alone....
I was thinking very hard on whether I deserved to stay in hwa chong... as everyone would know by now, I am the only 8 pointer in class who got in without appealing. I was comparing my abilities as a 8 pointer triple science student in hwa chong, with that of the other 8 pointers, and I guess I got so depressed that I changed the topic...
to the people who would be leaving. I won't deny that I will miss all of them alot... alot alot alot... Zihao I will miss for his sense of humour, humility, care and concern for other classmates especially... *ahem* *cough cough cough*, and most of all his zai-ness in math and physics (which he will always claims sucks because he is sitting in near proximity to zhen hao or yan zhi). Sighz, with him gone, there goes my walking, talking approachable physics and maths study guide and a good friend.
Ziping, I will miss everything about you!!!! No one to teach me how to play Di Zi anymore!!!! WAAAH!!! Then there is no one to talk crap with me, no one to complain with about lessons, and no one to help explain if my mind is shutting down during lectures. From now on, we will not see the small petite figure with ear phones sitting at the class bench so early in the morning doing tutorials. What can I say, you inspire me to actually think of whether I finished all my tutorials and do them in the morning? Haha.
Liang Zhen... sigh, I will have lost one of the most honest friends that I have made in the class -as well as my helpful apparatus counter. Though I never talk to you much in class, you've always been quite nice and thoughtful... Wishing you would come back to 7A so that GP class will be as lively and radical as it used to be, and the poor Bio reps will be able to leave Bio labs faster... haha... this sounds like I want you back to help me. But seriously, I wish you were back... however all my wishes never come true.
Louis! Sigh, I will never have the opportunity to laugh when someone opens his mouth to sing again. I think its quite wierd and maybe a bit insulting, but everytime you do that, I start feeling like laughing. Ah well, you do bring laughter and joy to people in the class everytime you open your mouth. You own the Frozen throne remember? Hm, i miss your deperate attempts to move our lethargic asses to Chem lecture and tutorial and lab, sometimes even for other tutorials and lectures. I personally will not forget you, wonder if the class ever will? The choir people perhaps, Karen and Nicholas... no one to sing Binama with them. :)
Sherlene~ what can I say, the class feels less alive without you there, talking with Karen, squealing, abusing Kelvin... I may not talk to you that much, but your presence is felt. REally... I guess other than the audible presence, I will miss your nice personality. The personality that leads you to be nice to people around you, and to actually go out of your way to be nice to them, to make them feel in and not like a total stranger. That's real kind and caring of you. (It's something I would think twice before doing)
Pei yeung!!!! No more comfort hugs.... that's one thing I will miss, for sure. Then there is the priceless and invaluable help that you give me when I need it during tutorials. I don't know what to say. You have been there everytime i want someone to accompany me... and now you are not. hm... i sound pretty self centered... don't i? But u are there for so many people, like Mel, PQ, Karen... you are so nice... why must u leave? (btw. u and zihao still haven't succeeded in making me skate decently)
Hmm... this looks very long already.
Anyhow, to cut it short, I was thinking about escaping, leaving, disappearing to crash njc or acjc... even sajc or rjc. Nothing much in class that I am particularly attached to, only people like Joanna, Mel, Nicholas, Zhen Hao, Gwyneth (fellow Geper that is smarter than me)... and i will miss Alfred's contreversial ways... I guess the only thing holding me back is my love for Hwa Chong StringZ and my promise to help Kel and David through elections... even if I don't get elected. (I don't think i have a high chance to do that - popularity fail... ). And my good friend Mich... there will always be heartache if I leave and the JCM trio is truely and thoroughly split... but I (being me) will always put on a brave face and wish you well... actually, you probably will do well whether I wish it or not... but for old time's sake... :D a big smile to say I LURVE YOU ALWAYS and I WILL BE THERE~!
Original 7A rox~!!!!!
Jo. N.
Jayz
9:38 PM
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I'm lovin' it!PQ
p q
8:08 PM
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
We close our eyes and we dream of touching the sky.Wake up.
Our arms are too short.
PQ
p q
11:51 PM
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也许这是上天给我的考验。。。我能成功吗？
its 2300 and there's no news yet.. shld i keep on waiting? shld i give up?
i'm really afraid.. really worried.. every phone call i receive, every sms i receive.. i wonder if it's from the sch.. my heart skipped a beat each time my phone rings and vibrates.. this wait is long and tiring.. it isnt fun.. will i even get a call.. i wonder.. i hope i will.. i don't want to leave.. i'm getting emotional.. i feel like crying now..
if this is really a test for me, i will wait.. i'll wait for as long as i have to..
i imagined myself going back to hc tml, hugging u guys, telling everyone tt i get to stay.. but will this happen? i really dunno.. i imagined myself crying when o levels result was released.. and i did.. hopefully.. this time.. my imagination, my dream will come true too... i'm waiting.. endlessly..
how much longer can i stay cheerful? how much longer can i stay hopeful?
i'm really really sorry if this post is full of unhappiness.. pls bear with it..
maybe i should look on the brighter side.. even if i cant stay.. i'll see u guys (erm actually, girls) 2 years later.. in one of the universities.. muz rmb me hor..
waiting.. . . . . . . . . . .
i believe the many 'gd luck' i received from all of u will give me e will to continue waiting.. will touch heaven and let me stay in hc.. i try to hold on to this belief for as long as i can..
it's been a really long time since i was this upset...
ending my post soon.... i think i shall end on a happier note...
here's a saying for all of u..
'Smile always --- 'coz it's the best thing to do'
=)
-me-
Zi Ping
zp
10:55 PM
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i have never felt so helpless before. i used to believe that things happen for a reason. the reason why moe decided to abolish the stupid prelim system, was because they wanted to stop the kind of pain, disappointment that we are feeling today. but why couldn't it have been our year? there is no reason in what is happening to us now. if we weren't meant to know each other, then why bother to let us all get so close? why bother to do that when they cannot guarantee that we can stay together?
the question that is going through everyone's mind is the same. can they stay? i really hope and believe that that's what everyone wants - for them to stay. there isn't anything that i can do to help. nothing. helpless. all i can do is just hope. just hope and hope. i can only hope that they stay. even if they aren't meant to and if their future is elsewhere, i am selfish. i am selfish. i don't want them to go. i just don't.
zihao makes me laugh, helps me stay awake during lectures if i sit next to him, helps me with tutorials, helps me with everything he possibly can. we go home together, talk, eat etc. he lends me his shoulder whenever i feel tired. ziping talks to me, sings jay chou songs and chun zhen to me. we like the same things, the same people. she is a physics genius, math genius, genius in practically everything and is willing to help and explain and explain and explain. sherlene. pretty as a fairy. so sweet and teh. laughs and squeals in such a cute way that i laugh too even if i don't understand the joke. liang zhen is my advisor, talks and asks me questions in such a serious way that i feel grownup. he's one of the few people that i believe are truly honest and respect me. very sweet person, though he doesn't show it often. pei rong. does so much for me that i can't put it down here. when you add up all the little things she has done, you realise how insignificant you actually were compared to her. she does so much but doesn't show or say anything. louis, my nephew. so adorable, has such a nice voice and when he sings it makes me feel so happy, he always makes me laugh. his lame jokes are so lame, his songs so nice, he is so nice and so smart... chem whizz who knows EVERYTHING about chemistry.
sometimes i think that if i left, maybe there'd be one more space for one of them, and the chance that everyone would be reunited would be higher. my existence doesn't make a difference but theirs would be sorely missed. then i realise that it is too late to do so. i am not going to stop hoping. there's still hope until there's none left. crying won't help and i will not do it again.
can only hope now. nothing else i can do. there can be miracles. i believe.
i love you guys. i really really do.
mel
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10:02 PM
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
woohoo~ my 2nd post..realised our blog a lil dead.. so i decided to blog.. ( i'm so nice rite~) yep.. anw.. i got posted to nj.. in case there's someone who doesnt noe tt (which wud make me really sad..).. will try my best to appeal back.. even went back to rv to ask my tcher to write a recommendation letter for me.. my form tcher's soooo nice lor.. he wrote it for me thou he knew it wudnt make much of a diff.. (so nice~~!) haha.. he said many many many nice things abt me.. =))))))))))))))))))))) shant tell u guys e content.. later u guys say i haolian.. lolx..
lalala.. wad else shall i say.... hmm.. juz wana say tt it's been really really nice knowing all of u.. n i'm sorry if i hadnt spoke much to some of u.. n if i had been a boring person to tok to.. a thousand million thx to those who wished me gd luck.. =DDDDDD n those who said i've been a great fren.. =DDDDDDD thx~!
juz a short term of three mths.. we haf grown closer to one another.. so many events had taken place.. stj, jts, cny stall, banner painting, ponning csp, sitting in kap n toking crap, playing tt bottle-rhythm thingy.. tt clap-clap-tap-tap-tap thing, truth n dare.. n many many more.............. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD really happy thinking of these many things we haf done tgt as a class..
will miss u guys.. then again.. if i manage to appeal back.. i wun haf to miss u pple... lolx.. coz i'll get to see u guys almost everyday!! sooo... in conclusion.. juz wana say tt i really really really really really really really really really really really really really hope that i can stay...
oh ya.. shld i still do my hw??? lolx..
tts all for now.. tata~ till nxt tym
-me-
ziping =)
zp
8:20 PM
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
Wah, such long posts, I shan't try to outdo you guys...I'm very happy today, as this is the 1st time in around 10+ days I had access to a computer!! Yay!! Unfortunately/fortunately for me, There's at least another 2 weeks of this type of life to go, argh.
I truly realised how dependent on the computer we teenagers are nowadays. Not being able to on the computer and sign in to MSN seems to be hell for me to endure for the 1st few days. Lets make a report on the effect of lack of computer on me:
Observed withdrawal symptoms: restlessness, hyperactivity, irritable, want-to-cry-for-mama-although-it-won't-help, lack of will to do hw etc...
Last time, when my parents threw away all my games (they even deleted my solitaire @_@) I was X_X... Not to mention that all the games cost my $$ and some are rare collector's editions (I still can't get over this fact). However after a while, I realised: Hey, its okay! In fact, I can do more hw, slp more hrs and slack for more time. I have much more time on my hands, and though not as much meaningful way to spend them, so I'm as active as a garden slug nowadays. But bottomline is: I'm Happy!! I'm a believer of the "I'm not OK, you're not OK, but that's OK" Kind of stuff. Just be happy on the inside and a bad day will be good and a good day will be great!!!
Updates on the week: FAC NIGHT!!!!!!!!!For those who didn't go, its quite a loss. Lets go the thru the crazy things that happened:
-Alfred and louis putting his ear and kissing someone's butt respectively
-Ben and Mich licking a transparency with peanut butter (the photos are truly erotic XD)
-Adam and Me competing in the armpit-hair-competition-that-we-thought-was-muscleman-competition and getting a shiny thong each for the effort (which Adam threw away =P)
-Mich, Jo-Ann, and my Mei competiting in stuffing-Marshmellows-in-mouth and doing something else which I missed (went toilet to check out how the thong looked on me!!! and I'm lying, I just went to the loo)
-Our fag prince (Kelvin) and fac princess (Sherlene) dancing our fac dance (which was pleasant for our eyes, well, sort of)with a limited amount of grace
-Our fag prince eating a Banana+Mayo+sardine+things I can't remember sandwich. It smelt like a decomposing corpse. Both Adam and louis helped, but Kelvin did most of the job. And you might have noticed, yes, Sherlene was the spared the agony of tasting it (thanks to our gentlemen)
-All the fac prince and fac princesses doing really weird and awful things, which are morbidly amusing to watch
-The bowling session, which I didn't go =(
For more details, please refer to one of the kindly 7A members who went. I can't remember anything more, but my memory is like a leaky cauldron =P
And on Thursday, I got my HOT DATE-I mean birthday lunch with My angel, Sheryl the sleeping queen. She lived up to her name by waking up at 12pm, when our time to meet is 12.30pm =) Anyway, we went to the suki sushi in the cineleisure, which offers sushi buffet!!! We really got out money's worth: I ate 22 plates (excluding sashmi, tofu and other things I ordered). It was unreal and I can't really bend over after it XD. Met PQ and her friends later, it was a jolly day.
Ok, enough about myself for one day. Hope some of you will share your holiday encounters!
P.S: I noticed this post is also sickeningly long XD
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5:42 PM
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
haha... today I'm blogging for the second time. I deleted the first entry because I thought it was stupid. haha... but even if this entry is stupid i'll still leave it here. hehe... blogging because i'm very very very very very very very happy today! don't think the most of you would understand why, but yeah. hope everyone is or will be just as happy... =]went out with an old friend today. joce. sigh... it's only when you lose people that you finally understand how much they mean to you? though we haven't truly spoken( meaning sitting down and gossiping) for so long hehe, we're still really close... today was just filled with everything funny. the day started with this super funny thing. met her at amk. went on the train. then this little girl was staring at me. she whispered(or at least tried to whisper)to her mum: "mummy, that boy looks like a girl." her mum turned, saw me and whispered back ( or at least attempted to whisper): "not boy! girl! jie jie. not gor gor." and my dear friend joce was guffawing in the background. sheesh! do i look like a guy? haha... and from the lips of an innocent little girl... haha...
I just realised that this entry is kind of... can't seem to find the right words to put it... erm... bloggish? the kind most teens blog on their blogs? haha... typically bimbotic. I feel air headish. haha... and we both behaved abnormally today... embracing each other in public, giggling non stop like bimbos, erm... describing and 'classifying' people and laughing again. oh... we came up with three classes. 1.the unreachables 2. the upper class. 3. the 'never will take a second glance' class. need to state examples to illustrate the system. like... erm... sherlene py pq karen etc belong to upper class. little me in class three. erm. popular people that you'd look at and admire but would never speak to would belong to class one. lame but yeah... sheesh. i think we're evolving, from normal sensible little girls to bimbotically squeamish air heads. haha... well... at least she's pretty. she's in class one by the way. pretty smart sporty interesting and lots of other good qualities. only fault? too many guys after her in nj. haha... really.(joce dear if you ever read this, i'm just stating the truth, but not mentioning any names.^_^)
realised again that i'm very fat... ate so much today i feel super guilty. ate umeya! and went for the first time to pasta mania... in bugis. have lots of nice memories at bugis because that's where most of the weiqi tournaments were held. and today was another nice memory. haha... i'm really repeating myself aren't i. and this entry is too full of what i did and what i think... i'm sorry. forgive me ok? just let me use this post, ok?
another happy day was friday. pw was fun for once. louis jo-ann yz joanna and myself were doing this lit review thing on abortion and because i was the one typing... there were lots of erm... interesting jokes because of my sucky typing skills. haha... but it was very very very funny! and the dinner at macs... and telling ghost stories on bus 74. haha... it makes me happy just thinking of it... think i'm easily satisfied. but hey... haha...
and... best of all the band concert... think music just makes me happy and just makes things nice. though certain embarrassing things happened before and after the concert, when i went back home everything went back to normal. recorded some songs from the concert and listened to them. thanks band for playing so nicely. =]
i'm really thankful that i belong to this class... thanks for being so nice and everything so far. i don't think i've felt this way about any of the other classes i've been in, though i do love 4U... and though i may not be able to contribute much to 7a, i really do love you people. =] learnt something from gor yesterday: not to judge people before they know them. thanks for not judging me before you knew me... i know how a.s. i was during the first few weeks and it's because you guys didn't judge me first and decide to leave me alone that i'm capable of being so happy today. =] what may happen in the future i cannot control. i just know that i can say what i want to say right now. thank you thank you thank you and thank you. and... i love you people. i really do. =]
MeL
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6:52 PM
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
Wooh.... i feel so high after Cappricio!!! haha, i don't even know if I am spelling correctly... just typing and typing... Anyway... Cappricio... yes~! i feel so high now because all my favourite songs were played... like Phantom of the Opera, Pirates of the Carribbean, Moon River, Brazilian Street Dance... and the encore roX~! why couldn't band play more encores... like Nanyang Band... keep playing encore until the lights went off... and then they were still playing in the dark... but nevermind... three cheers to our darling Alfra who played the trumpet... and three times three cheers for Yin How... who played the trombone solo... WOW HE DAMN PRO LOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whee... what a way to kick off the March hols.Today was fun... had Expose in the morning... the councillors were talking to us, then we had mass dance... and song singing... and i dragged Kel up to malu-ate ourselves... haha.. I'M SOOOO SORRY IF I HUMILIATED U KEL!!! I APOLOGIZE!yepz... it was pretty fun... met alot of people and i realised that we have alot of people running for Ares!!! Ahaha... we are sooo going to be challenged... and we definitely need chance!!!
Very high today cuz i met alot of friends today!!! I met one J5 (if there is such a term) that I never really see around cuz she is working... then i met a family friend who was in HC for some cca alumni thingy... it was soooo cool... since she went away to study for a few years and we lost contact... Ah!!!! I love my friends!!!! then of course there are the ny band people who put up with my lousy chicken growling when i was playing wif them for the Appassionata concert... forgot which one... and Chrissie!!! My very good friend Chrissie who came for HC concert!!! LALALA... I love today man!!! and I know i am crapping... its the start of the Holidays!!! Have a happy holiday u guys! Especially Joannna... have fun on ur overseas trip!!! Come back safely~!
okay.. got to go...
Good night~!
Jayz
11:59 PM
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Friday, March 04, 2005
thanks for the card with all those notes... u all are really a sweet bunch!always looking forward to lessons with the class... cos' u all smile a lot :)
the enthusiasm is refreshing too, though i tend to end up with sore throat after class...
keep up the spirits when the going gets tough, and have a good 2 years ahead. study hard.
mrs cheng
chiralcarbon
9:03 AM
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